Thunderstorm

Right now we are in the midst of a thunderstorm. We don't get a lot of them out on the coast. Something about the mountains and air flow. Anyhow, Abby is a mess, shaking, trying to hide, dogging my every move, Boots on the other hand is content to hide under the table in my office. Bryon would have loved this, we used to sit outside in the rain and watch the storm, savour the fresh smell, bask in the sheer joy of the power of the lightening. It takes me back to the time we were in the states, one of the flat areas. We were heading back to Ontario and stopped for the night. A thunderstorm came and we sat out back of the motel and watched the fork lightening. All of a sudden.......crash, sirens, and off we went to see what had happened. Seems the lightening had hit someones barn.
I have been feeling really down, missing Bryon, wanting him back, something I know will not happen.  I am still trying to get used to him being dead, I know it has been almost 2 years but it feels like yesterday.
Maybe this storm is him having a big party up there with all his relatives, maybe even my mother and father are there with him. I miss him. I wish I could sit by and really enjoy this fury of nature, but it just brings back too many memories, memories that we should be making now. On the same trip we ran into another storm. I remember driving down the highway, rain pelting down so hard we had to pull over. We watched the lightening and I tried to capture it on the video camera. Over there, no over there, there did you get it?  I can still hear his voice. Yes Bryon we got it!!
I am going to go and sit on the couch, watch the storm, hug my dogs and let my mind wander back.

Miss you my Pooter Bear.