July 13

Tell me, why is it the only time I want to write something is usually in the middle of the night? Tonight I got smart and decided to sit myself down and rant. Yup, right now I want to rail against everything and everyone. I have tried on numerous occasions to get ahold of Bry's kids. I think they should at least have some idea as to what is going on with their father. I guess they have busy lives, yes that they must do because I never get and answer and of course I will not leave a message. Only one of them sent him a fathers day email. I feel bad for Bry because he misses them so and thinks that the lack of communication is because he was a bad father. He checks his email on a regular basis, looking for a short note or perhaps a picture of one of the gkids. What kids fail to remember is, parents do not live forever and once they are gone you can't talk to them. I know this first hand, I was one of those kids who never really appreciated my father, now I would sell my soul to the devil just to be able to sit and talk to him.I miss him so. Next rant....I do not do waiting well. I just know that the doctor has Brys result but we have to wait for a week tomorrow to find out anything. Next rant.....I am angry at almost everything..there do I feel better...not really. How will all this change our world, I hope that God willing we can change it, become better people, stop to enjoy life, because it is all too short.