Life sucks

Lately I can say with true conviction that Life Sucks, being a widow sucks, just about everything sucks!!! A person can only enroll in so many classes, work, volunteer whatever. You still come home to an empty house. No one to ask you how your day went, no one for you to tell what a crappy day you've had. No one to tell you everything is going to be all right.....well news flash....at this given time I feel that nothing will ever be all right again. My co-worker says I'm depressed, no fun anymore. It's only been almost 10 months since Bry died, our anniversary is on the 18th but what the heck I guess I am a wimp for not sucking it up. Honestly I am trying to live not just exist but lately that takes way too much energy. I keep telling myself that things have to change....right. I want to sell everything, pack my car with what I need, take my "girls" and just go far far away.
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