Saturday October 23,2010

Now might not be the best of times to post as I took my sleeping pill an half hour ago but what the heck. Bryon has had 4 radiation treatments. It's funny that exposure to radiation can kill you and yet here he is getting beamed 4 times every day for 15 days. I guess that have to almost kill you in order to kill the cancer. His chest is getting dry and red from the treatments and fatigue has once again set in. He finds it hard to stay up more that 8-9 hours but he is sleeping through the night.He is looking worn and tired which is to be expected. I miss his wit, his cute sayings, I miss who he was but he will return. He came home the other night after the dog walk with some lovely red carnations for me....his way of saying "thank you"
We went to WalMart last night, he in his wheelchair. He wanted to buy a new watch as the one he has now no longer fits his wrist. New pants were on the agenda as well. I don't like taking him out much as flu season is upon us and we can't risk him getting sick.Our once quiet "us" time at lunch has become out time at VGH cancer clinic. Soon all this will be in the past, it will fade but never go away. We will talk about it as we sit on our rocking chairs on the porch....yes, we will grow old together.