Lonely

Lonely,miserable,withdrawn.....
How can one man find his way into my heart so deeply that his dying evokes such deep feelings of dispare even after 14 months?
I was blessed to have 23 wonderful years but I feel like I am living a lie. Smiling cheerful at work when all I really want is to tell everyone to go to h...and leave me alone. Is life .worth living...is loving worth the pain?

Wait for me behind the moon
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