Thin Threads

On October 29, 2010 I lost my best friend. The only person that truly understood me, the man I wanted to grow old with. People say that the grief diminishes but I don't think so. You learn to live with it, to hide it and become the person others want to see.
There are extremely dark times such as now. I wander around in our house, carrying on conversations in my mind with Bryon. I start to wonder why I am still here when all I really want is to be with him. Dark thoughts enter my mind. At times I think it would be so easy to just slip away, quietly, peacefully.
But there is this thread that will not allow me to do anything. The thread is my children, grandchildren, great grandchild and my dogs. I owe it to Bryon, myself and them to live the life I have been given. It's not easy and there are times I just want to let go.
I miss you Bryon so much!

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