Breaking the cycle

I think I finally have it figured out why I still smoke. When Bryon got sick we both had almost quit, he died, I started again. Broke my hip, didn't smoke for over a week, no cravings even after the drugs wore off. Started again. So after a lot of thought I am really trying to quit again. Gone from 30 per day to 8. Smoking was something Bry and I did together. We would be working, he in the shop me in the house and all of a sudden he would call " Miller (beer) break." I would grab a coke he a beer and we would sit and talk both if us smoking. Smoking has become to me a way of connecting with happier times. It fills a void. So now I have decided to really try to stop.
Each day I am going to cut down 1 smoke and hopefully quit in a week.
Keeping my fingers crossed. I don't need them to stay connected to Bryon for he is always on my thoughts and heart.
Love you Bryon

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