Monday

Our life was not supposed to be this way, we were going to travel, have fun, sit by the fire, grow old together. You are gone, and I am left behind, I miss you, how I miss you. I am tethered here by family, and the girls. They keep me grounded. I try not to cry around the girls, they are having a hard enough time....missing you, looking out the window for you. My mind travels back to those last couple of days, what could I have done differently, was there anything that would have kept you here? I revisit the last time I saw you, you looked so peaceful, without pain. I wanted to lie down with you, to drift to where you had gone, to be with you forever. Instead I gave you my last gift,a kiss. I go through the motions of living each day but there is a big part of me that is gone and it is only motions, motions of life.