Thursday, Dec 02

I am now getting a greater understanding as to why many wives, husbands die shortly after one and other. When a partner dies there is a large of part of you that wants to follow them, to be with them wherever that might be. Sometimes it is hard to find a reason to stay on this earth when your one big reason is gone. When and if you say this to family or friends some automatically think that you are going to off yourself. Please know this is not the case with me, I have family, friends and the girls and a big gapping whole in my heart.Bryon and I were almost as one, we could spend 24/7 together and love each minute of it. I have not been able to see the moon, to cloudy, guess he is in Montana. We loved it there and often talked about moving down there....it is so free. Some say that with each day that passes it gets easier.......IT'S A LIE!!!!!!!!!!!.With each day that passes I relive everything, for me it is the last couple of months that I was lucky to have Bryon.
I miss him. Bryon is my husband, nothing will change that, I am not a widow, I am his wife.

Love you, miss you, good night Pooter.