Friday Aug 20

For some insane reason I thought this blogging would be easy....not so. When a person takes the time to write about what is going on in their life it also means that you have to really think about what is going on. If it is not in print then you can deny, manipulate or even just close your mind off. People have asked me why I blog, well their are many reasons, first it is a place that I can safely vent without it upsetting Bry, secondly I hope that if anyone reading this has faced this they will act as my lamplighter and help me down the path.Thirdly if anyone has to face this (god forbid) maybe something they read will help them.
Bry is getting very antsy, too many doctors appointments, the not knowing if this elephant has gone elsewhere in his body, his attitude is lets get this chemo/radiation going. He just hates waiting"let's get the show on the road"
We have had some serious "what if" talks. He has seemed angry, not that I blame him, but as long as we keep the line of communication open we will get through this.It is when either one of us close up, then we are in trouble. On an upward note, he got fitted for his hearing aids...now I will have to watch what I say about him.