June25

Bry went to see a specialist. This guy seems pretty good, asked a lot of questions: has he ever been around asbestos, carcenegenic (please excuse the spellings)agents and whatever. He has the cat scan but as of that date it has not been read. A lot of good that is!!!!!!! July 06 is his date for a bronchoscopy, still waiting for a date for the PET scan. Seems that an infection has been ruled out. God I hate waiting!!!!End of August is the full pulmonary test, lung volume, diffusion capacity and airway resistance. So there is everything I don't know.

June 17

Was talking to a good friend tonight, told her what was going on.
In her wise ways she told me that I should turn on the light and introduce myself to
the elephant. I can't do that yet, for in my heart I know that he doesn't have a name yet. Maybe in a couple of weeks I can do it but right now all I would see is this scary elephant, one who would not answer my question. I guess that my mind is happier right now believing that it is not really an elephant but a pussy cat. Who knows......maybe that is all it is.
Love ya Tec! and thanks

June 15

Dates for follow up with the hosital and specialist, June 21 and 25. 21 st for a cat scan and I really don't know what the other one is. I think it is schedule the camera down the throat thingy.

June 11

There is an elephant in the room. We know it is there but we will not acknowledge it, maybe it will go away. We don't want to talk about it, what is doing there, how did it get there, will it go away. Yes, there is an elephant in the room and it is scary.

June 09

You always know when the doctor phones up and tells you that he needs to see you, right away
that it probably isn't good. So off Bry went to see him. Great, Bry returned home with the news that the xray has shown a 10cm something on his left lung. Panic strikes me, he on the otherhand ....well I can't read what is going on in his mind. More tests are scheduled.

June, 07

O.K. finally Bry went to the doctors. Why are men so reluctant to mention that anything is wrong when they go? Dr. F ordered chest xrays. Now we wait.

Oh shot I forgot to mention why this all started. My dear husband announced to me that he had been coughing up blood. He had just been to the doctors a week before and of course I asked him if he had mentioned it to him. Of course not, why would he do something as practical as that. Needless to say I lost it. He had a choice, he call or I call. I called.