Rembering Yesterday

I haven`t posted for a long time. I thought I didn`t have too. I  felt that I had jumped that hurdle of needing to write.......how wrong I was.   These last 5 plus years have been the darkest.  I started back to work full time and I manage to keep so busy so my mind doesn`t go to that dark place.
When I go home, well that is a different story.  Other than being greeted by me dogs, which is wonderful, there is still someone missing. Days when I want to come home and share how my day went have gone. I feel like I am standing on the brink of a cliff.  Behind me is the sun, below is the dark abyss beckoning me. The silk line of family is the only thing keeping me here.