Dec 23

The last two years have been far from stellar. Marj lost Jim, Lexis lost Gordie, Tammy lost her Mike, Murielle lost her husband, Jenny(the lady that was such a big help when I planned Bys headstone) lost her husband and I lost Bryon. Boy getting old sucks, people start to die all around you. Kind of humbleing, a wake up call......Hey girl you are not immortal!

I don't remember much about last Christmas, one big blur. This year I am trying to make it all about family, good food, laughter, a great grandson and yes maybe some tears. My doctor said I was becoming a Darth Vader.....come to the dark side, and you know he is right. Now each day I am making an effort to take steps forward, they might be baby steps but they are steps none the less. Focus on how lucky I was to have Bryon in my life not on what I don't have. Brave words, now just to live up to them.