Cancer,... yesterday, today and tomorrow.: Feb.20 Sunday night

Sunday, February 20, 2011

You should not have left me, you should not have died!!!!!!!!!

At February 22, 2011 at 12:59 AM , SonFire TaeKwonDo Academy said...: Along with having to accept that Bryan is gone,
you are staring, "What is it all for" right in the face. You feel incomplete, everything is an effort when we see no reason to have to do it.
here are four stages you must go through my friend. Denial - it's not going o happen, it didn't happen, I'll look up and he will be smiling that mischievious smile. Anger, because he left, at God for taking him, at those who were not around, atthe thousand and one, things you think you should have done, so that he would not leave, at the things you wish you had done, at the things you wish you'd said, at yourself for being angry at him. Acceptance, I must go on alone, Moving on, each stage has it's own length and you may go through one more than once, each one' length will be governed by you and you alone. On Sunday, I spoke about how, no matter how close your love for others andfor that
one person in particular, at the end, even surrounded by those you love, you will be alone, indeed, life itself is a lonely journey, if you are lucky as you and Bryan were to have each other, essentially we are each on a path that no one can walk for us. We can walk beside you, but not for you. Darling, you will make it, use your strength but accept your vulnerability it is uniquely part of you and the reason why you are loved. Good night my friend, may peace be with you. Love Sue